From the Miriam- Webster Dictionary:
Definition of anxiety
1 a (1) : apprehensive uneasiness or nervousness usually over an impending or anticipated ill : a state of being anxious
What triggers your anxiety? Is it an illness that is threatening to return? Is it a threat of violence, or the memory of a traumatic event?
For me, the mere thought of guns in my daily life…the thought of civilians carrying concealed weapons…people I don’t know. I tried to overcome this anxiety by learning to handle a gun myself. I completed training to have a concealed weapon. I am not afraid to hold or handle a gun myself. I choose not to have guns around me.
About three months ago, I learned that my ex-husband told our son that he was going to kill me. He showed our son the gun he would use. This man has killed with a gun before- his own father. He has held a gun to the head of another ex-spouse, in a threatening manner. He has made a statement to a psychologist, that he could be pushed to kill.
In all the recent talk surrounding weapons, I shake my head. This man has bragged to our kids about the fact that he conceal carries. My son is afraid that his dad will murder someone in a sudden burst of anger.
He passes background checks….was able to sign on as a substitute teacher in our public schools. I even called our district to advise against this hiring, and was told that as long as he passed a background check, he could work in our schools with our children.
There was nothing more I could do to protect myself and others.
How do you cope with anxiety?
I take a lot of deep breaths. I also distract my mind with genuine purpose. I have a mission in life…everyday. I want to show God’s Love to all that I meet. I want to share the message “you are enough” with others who struggle with perfectionism and other self-defeating mantras. I want to build relationships, and teach others to do the same.
Love to all of you who battle anxiety from very real experiences❤️